There is a gash in my soul. A cut so deep within me that it can not be reached, repaired or receive the oxygen it needs to dissipate. It is just there, perpetual and persistent in it's inability to heal. It was small in childhood, one peppered with memories of love and pain. A dramatic youth full of loss, confusion and instability.…Continue
Added by Lori Pace on July 24, 2015 at 1:39pm — No Comments
'She will hate you when she is 20 if you don't do this for her now.'
That is the comment the doctor told my friend in front of her daughter at the last visit. What was she referring to? Hormones to make her daughter grow at more 'acceptable' rate for society. Keep reading, it gets even better.
Should doctors give parenting advice?
Sitting on a swing with my dear friend, the sun warm, the wind blowing, we chatted about as our children played. With seven little girls…Continue
Added by Lori Pace on March 31, 2015 at 10:10am — No Comments
I was finally relaxing after an insane day yesterday. I had sent the kids off to their weekly two hour dinner with their dad and was warmly curled up on the couch, tablet in hand for Candy Crush domination, and flipped on the television. There was not much on but I settled on a show that was talking about kids and the internet and the dangers. It was a story piece highlighting several kids that had gotten killed as a result of online interactions. Fully aware that this show would…Continue
Added by Lori Pace on February 27, 2015 at 7:28am — No Comments
Cancer....This is not a word that I ever wanted to see associated with my name. Yet, there it was hanging on the edge of the doctor's lips. I heard the cancer part but missed the rest of what he was saying entirely. He also said the words male, breast and possibility. The word cancer drowned all of that out for the first go round. The doctor almost seemed to realize that and repeated the phrase a few times to wake me up to what he was saying.…Continue
Added by Lori Pace on February 17, 2015 at 7:33am — No Comments
I realize that this post might ruffle a few feathers. I realize that I am speaking from my own experience. And I realize that my ex-husband will read this and unleash yet another round of hatred and immaturity on me. I also realize that all family units are not the same. Not all mothers are on the ‘best’ list and that men are screwed over by woman in the name of the children almost daily. I do live in the real world. But, some of us are doing everything we are supposed to do and still…Continue
Added by Lori Pace on February 15, 2015 at 11:22am — No Comments
I have never been a fairy tale girl. I have always known that things are not always as they seem. Blame it on my childhood or just on my internal make-up, but I did not want to…Continue
Added by Lori Pace on February 10, 2015 at 12:11pm — No Comments
I walked back from the bus stop dragging two scooters and a bicycle feeling them well up inside me. The frustration and angst that I struggled to hold down were pressuring the tears to release themselves. As I walked, fallen leaves scattering under my feet as if in fear, I listened to the roll of the plastic scooter wheels on the concrete. I would not let them out. I was a mother, after all, and we all have days that make us…Continue
Added by Lori Pace on January 26, 2015 at 10:13am — No Comments
Putting together the perfect mother daughter date night on Valentine's Day is a ton of fun. You can go in so many directions and really make it a special memory. Spending that type of quality time with your daughter on a day like Valentine's Day makes it even more special. Here are five really fun ideas to try out the next time you spend a mother daughter date night together on Valentine's Day:…Continue
When my daughter hates me, a part of me feels like it is dying. Hate is a particularly strong word coming from anyone, but coming from your child it stings even more. As a single mom it can be particularly tough dealing with these types of situations. Kids can hate you for a number of different reasons, but most of them boil down to the fact that you are asking (or telling) them not to do something they clearly want to do. Hating us appears to be the kid's way of getting back. There are a…Continue
Added by Lori Pace on January 15, 2015 at 10:13am — No Comments
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I was not going to write about this but the more time I spend thinking about it, the more I have to get it off my chest. Because sometimes, you just have to speak up. I have to say, Judging Me as a Mom Does Not Make You Right!
Last night I put a status on my Facebook page about the toys my kids had taken away for spending over 2 hours rejecting my request that they lay their…Continue
Added by Lori Pace on December 30, 2014 at 4:54pm — No Comments
Another jury has decided that a police officer is not legally responsible for the death of a man. Eric Garner was put in a choke hold in July on Staten Island after an altercation with police that started with cigarettes. He was taken to the ground by multiple men, put in a choke hold for no apparent reason and later died of his injuries. He also had asthma and was overweight and they are asking us to believe that was more the cause of death than a banned choke hold that restricted air from…Continue
Added by Lori Pace on December 4, 2014 at 9:04am — No Comments
It is possible that I am typing this post with tears in my eyes. Frustrated, tired, at the end of my rope tears. Not because anything in particular is wrong. Not because I have any real complaints in life. But because I get up everyday thinking I can do it, I can handle it and I can succeed at everything my life entails. But I go to bed every night feeling like I did not do enough, I did not accomplish enough and that I need 15 more hours in the day just to make a dent. I feel like I let…Continue
No one can take care of my children better than I can. No they can't. No they can't! NO THEY CAN'T!
OK, yes they can but I will not admit it, concede to it or acknowledge it no matter how rational your argument is! OK Fiiinnnneeeeeee..... I admit it.…Continue
I don't want to lose my kids.
Not even for a day. Not for a moment, a minute, a second. Not at all.
But as I hear of case after case of children going missing, being taken by strangers, people the family knows, non-custodial parents, getting lost in game machines... yes, that happened - I get more and more concerned about how to protect…Continue
I realize that this post might ruffle a few feathers. I realize that I am speaking from my own experience. And I realize that my ex-husband will read this and unleash yet another round of hatred and immaturity on me. I also realize that all family units are not the same. Not all mothers are on the 'best' list and that men are screwed over by woman in the name of the children almost daily. I do live in the real world. But, some of us are doing everything we are supposed to do and still being…Continue
Added by Lori Pace on March 3, 2014 at 11:41am — No Comments
One day I will be sitting across from one of my daughters, big eyes staring, hopeful, silently pleading, and she will be asking me to trust her. She will want to go out with a boy I don't like, attend a party that scares me, go to a concert of a band I think is rediculous. She will be asking for me to let her go. To let her grow up. To let her make the same mistakes I did.
I won't want to. …Continue
Added by Lori Pace on February 22, 2014 at 11:24am — No Comments
My kids take me through a myriad of emotions almost daily. From laughter to frustration to heart warming love to just plain 'How the heck am I ever going to get through this day?" But every moment is awesome. Even when I am on the verge of crawling into a lions den. Wearing BBQ sauce.…Continue
I sure hope this does not turn out to be one of those ironic pieces on the news where a mom drops dead and her words come back to bite her. You know the ones I am talking about. 'Body found, she seemed to predict it'. The truth is, I don't want to die. Like.. ever. But since that is not plausible then we will go with, I don't want to die until my kids are adults.
I have never had a fear of actually dying and I still don't. However…Continue
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